Edification

Forever a Daddy’s Girl

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On my journey of becoming a Daddy’s girl, God’s love is one of the greatest things that I get to experience. I want to share with you all three truths that God shared regarding His love for me.

Stop trying to find people to love you like only I can.

As I sat on the edge of my bed, feelings of loneliness and sadness began to fill every inch of my heart as I rehearsed the devastation of another failed situationship. At that moment I heard God so clearly say, “Stop trying to find people to love you like only I can.” It seemed as if everything in that moment stopped. The words of God enlightened my heart and mind with a bittersweet truth. The truth revealed that my search for love led me to chase after broken cisterns to give me something that they couldn’t hold. I yearned for someone who was not afraid of my pain, wounds, and past to say, “Yes, I still choose to love you. I see it all, and I still want to be in a relationship with you.” My extensive and vain search for love was halted by the One who had always been there waiting to love me in a way that my heart needed. At that time, I realized that I needed the Lover of my soul and I rested in His unconditional love for me.

You would have been separated from me.

There was a time in my life when I needed to break a strong soul tie. At the beginning of breaking the soul tie, I asked God why didn’t the relationship work out? God responded, “You would have been separated from me.” Now, I was fully aware that I was in an ungodly relationship, but I possessed a deep desire to know why because I held an ungodly belief that God wanted to punish and withhold “good” things from me.  That is when I had the epiphany that God did not withhold anything from me, but he kept me.

Once again, God’s love for me left me amazed. God loved me so much that He would sever a relationship to keep me as His own. Proverbs 3:11-12 says, “My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline, and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.”  Now I understand that God’s discipline serves a purpose, even if I don’t fully comprehend the purpose right then. Also, I learned that nothing could separate me from his love, but my habitual sin would have lead to a disconnection between God and I. I refuse to forfeit my inheritance of eternity with my Father just to experience temporary and fleeting moments of pleasure.

You will forever be mine, and I love you with a never-ending love.

I attended a growth class called SEED (Seeing Evidence of God Every Day), and our class leader conducted an activation at the end of the class. She instructed us to ask God, “What is an ungodly belief that I have about You?” God revealed to me that I struggled with believing that I belonged to Him and that he loved me. At that moment, God said that He loves with a never-ending love and that I will forever be His. God reminded me of my position in Him, and while I questioned my place quite often, God did not have any doubt.

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Those ungodly beliefs would flood my mind every time I would miss the mark. I started to believe the lie that God washed His hands of me, and I had used my lifetime supply of grace and mercy. The enemy attacked my identity by going after my position in God. He thought that if he could make me believe that I wasn’t his and that I couldn’t return to him, then I would revert to my old lifestyle because that was all I had left but the devil is a liar and an accuser of the brethren. But I’m so glad that God didn’t take his hands off me, and that I’m still in the safety of his arms. The Father’s love is unmatched, and nothing can compare to it.

I know that God loves me, but I’m still learning and experiencing God’s love for me. I learned that the pursuit of Christ leads me to God’s love and not the pursuit of perfection. Also, I learned to rely on the word of God and use it when the enemy wants me to believe his lies. Now when he starts to attack my identity in God, I tell him that I am chosen and loved. I believe within my heart that God loves me with never-ending love, so there’s nothing that I can do that’ll end his love for me.

 

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